You can't be me, I'm a Rock Star I'm rhyming on the top of a cop car I'm a rebel and my .44 pops far It's almost over now it's almost over now Guess, you ain't heard that we swallow guys It's too damn late ,to apologize When you see the mantle or when you see the skies It's almost over now It's almost over now
I FEEL LIKE SAYING... nothing at the moment
I FEEL LIKE DOING... nothing at the moment
I FEEL LIKE BELIEVING... nothing at the moment
I WANT TO FEEL... nothing at the moment
There's something about songs that when u really listen to them it starts to paint ur entire life in front of you.
I JUST KEEP HOPING THAT UR HEART OPENS... - SNOW PATROL
Im waiting for my downloads to finish... so while Im waiting I think I'm going to tell you what's been going on with my life since I last blogged.
My life since summer started has been one hell of a roller coaster ride! Yes, after so long I finally found the time to blog again. Summer's almost over and it seems to me that this chapter in my life is far from over! After I met this person in **ra I've found myself constantly caught up in situations I never thought I'd find myself in. I've been doing everything so unthinkable... sometimes I'm surprised that Im able to manage to get my ass home. Now that I've plunged into this, I'm not going to let myself leave empty handed, will I? Haha yeah I know, I sound crazy but its the least I could give myself after everything I've been through. Now I know what I want, but how I'm going to get it will have to depend on me and mother nature. Let's see if all forces will give me what I want. They should you know, cause it was also them who led me into this situation. Now I know I shouldn't believe in these things since I'm a Catholic but in Christian belief these things could also be phrased as "God's will". Why should i look elsewhere when God is giving it to me straight to the face right? I shouldn't like ask for anything more right now cause He's giving me what I want, only its not in the package I expected it to be. Pfffffffft. I'll do something about it, I should.
Last night, I was scared to death to go to sleep alone in my room. I had a lot of things in my mind cause I was trying not to think about the weird encounter I had earlier that afternoon.
Comming from the dentist, I had to pick up my mom at EDSA-Kamuning so that we'd go home together. I went into the office desperately looking for her cause I wanted to go home so bad. Then when I finally spotted her, I saw her talking with a woman, who apparently was a "manghuhula ng negotiante" of some sort. Being a person who's pretty interested in these sort of things, I sat neside my mom and I tried to comprehend the things she was saying.
As she went on, I saw apiece of paper with all our full names and birthdays written in it. Then she looked at me, and asked my name then I said "Monica po". She smiled and when I looked down I saw that she was already pointing to my name all the while. I smiled cause I was anticipating that she would tell me that I was a good kid to my mom or something.
Then she said "Buti dumating ka na, ikaw yung problema eh". SHOCK... just complete shock, my gosh I really didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to react cause my mom was there. She told me a whole bunch of things about me, that I have to change cause its taking toll on my life and my health. I can't give the details of what she said but it kind of made me look at things in a different way I guess. It's just plain spooky that she knew so much about me with numerology and looking into my eyes. That's something that will hunt me for the next couple of months. The things I get myself into.. ayayay
DAMN. School's almost over, the papers start to pile neck-high and I haven't done a single thing. Shoot
PLUS! Nica needs to lose weight, been eating like an insane animal for the past few weeks. OREOS + MILK (*yum -- ack! damn im hungry again!!! this sucks.)
Anyhoo I've been so frustrated lately cause my oTi card reader has been busted for the past month and pictures on my phone are piling up! My phone's going to hang if I dont do something about it, but I've got ZERO CASH so what do i do? Ack. Not Again!
Your heart is miles away from where i stand, you look in every direction but mine. How is it that I'm still standing here... waiting, waiting, waiting... Maybe now is the time to stand up and give destiny a bit of a hand here, maybe she missed a step or two. Fraustrated I should no longer be because from this moment on I will do everything in my power for you to notice me.
Yeah, just watched the best movie of all time and it still bothers me why I pride myself in reading cheap articles that are often posted by people I don't really know. It just makes me really hyped up wheneveer I read things that make me feel what they were feeling at that very moment no matter what manner it was written (good or bad --> Who am I to judge??) Anyway I had a lot of stuff that I needed to hold on to during the last few months and now I think I finally found the time to release my thoughts.
Who knows where thoughts come from?? They just appear... - Lucas (EmpR)
Never have I felt more discouraged in a while
It was really one of those days that a lot of unfortunate things happen and you just get beat down at the end of the day. I cried my heart out to my mom telling her about the things that just piled up.. then she said: "Ok lang yan makakabawi ka rin" Wow.. I know its really shallow of me but her statement made me stronger. Geesh I love my mom to bits. Anyway Im enojoying school right now meeting all those freshmen people was a whole lot of fun! I think I've adapted better in school now, and it's like time flies so fast when your in college. I love Ua&p right now, and it was just last year that I felt the complete opposite. I miss all of the people that had to leave uap and I miss my hs friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't seen them in a while and I want to do a little catching up.
